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As We​.​.​. (Ft. Ethan Butler)

from Alive & Ill by Micah Bournes

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They say time is a healer,
but the clock has been ticking for years and I'm still broken.
After walking with a limp for so long I've grown fond of it.
It makes me hip, ya know.
People wanna know what's wrong, what happened, why I'm like this.
And I'm not bitter but I gotta answer their questions
so I tell 'em, I tell 'em what you did to me, I tell 'em how it still hurts,
I tell 'em how much I've had to overcome and ya know what?
They love me, they love me like you didn't, they tell me I was right,
I was a victim.
Even though I already know that it's nice to hear every once in a while.
I gotta remember I didn't do this to myself.
I gotta know it's okay to be like this.
It's not my fault.
I don't have a choice.
It's not my fault.
Why are you staring?
Have you heard my story?
You wanna know why I'm like this?
Okay if you insist I guess I can tell you but it's
kinda hard to explain without giving you the whole story see...

And I can't find the words to say
sweat drippin' heart racin' trying to explain
that I'm broken, I'm broken
and I'm scared, I'm bitter
and forgiveness is like
breaking down the walls that I'm holding up
so I give up
and I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine (woah)
and I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine

And some people say get over it.
Let it go, like I can just unclench my fist and release.
Like I'm not reminded by every other thing I see.
It feels like a sick joke, like the whole world is taunting me.
Conversations and images cause my heart to connect the dots
back to memories I wish to forget.
And people will never understand why I flip at the sight of Christmas lights.
And I've tried to forgive you but I don't know what forgiveness is besides
some theoretical decision to pardon your sins and never speak with you again.
You may be forgiven but I'm still broken, I'm still broken.
And I've sought counsel and they tell me It's okay to be broken but no it's not.
I wanna be whole.
I wanna be whole.

And I can't find the words to say
sweat drippin' heart racin' trying to explain
that I'm broken, I'm broken
and I'm scared, I'm bitter
and forgiveness is like
breaking down the walls that I'm holding up
so I give up
and I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine (woah)
and I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name
thy kingdom come, thy will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
and forgive us our trespasses...
as we...
for... forgive us our trespasses...
as we...
a, as, as we...
forgive u, forgive us our tre...
as we...

I can't find the words
I can't find the words
I, I, I, I, I,
I I, I, I, I.

credits

from Alive & Ill, released June 25, 2014
Sponsored by World Relief worldrelief.org
Lyrics by Micah Bournes and Ethan Butler (ethanbutlermusic.com)
Music by Ethan Butler and E.M.J.
Recorded, Mixed and Mastered by E.M.J. of AlterBoy Productions alt-boy.com
Album artwork by Lindsey Taylor www.lindseydi.com

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